Something that has been bothering me for a weeks now

Hi I know all of you will understand where I am coming from when I tell you this story that I have kept to myself for several weeks now.


I have an amamzing boyfriend named Blake and without him I do not know how I would have gotten through this the past year since she was diagnosed. I will save that story for another blog on another day.

So here is what happened Blake has a big family with bothers, sistes and step brothers and sisters as well with all their kids. It was July 4th weekend and Blakes mother was having somewhere between 20-25 people there for the whole weekend with all the kids and so forth. I offered to do to all the desserts for that weekend. I made several differnt ones to be exact I made 6 all together 2 for each day Sat, Sun and Mon the 4th. On Saturday evening I took over what we call a Dreamy Creamy Kool-Aid Pie, Death by Chocoalte and a Ice-cream sandwhich dessert as well. All of which my daughter can eat when she is given the proper insulin. One of the ladies there that evening turned to me and said " Is this why your daughter is the way she is because you fed her sweets all the time?" For the first few seconds I was shocked she even said that to me. Then I got angry that someone would accuse of me that. After about 30 seconds which seemed like hours I looked at her and said "NO MY DAUGHTER WAS BORN WITH THIS DISEASE IT IS AN AUTO IMMUNE DISEASE IT WAS JUST A MATTER OF TIME THIS COULD OF HAPPENED WHEN SHE WAS SMALLER OR 10 YEARS FROM NOW!" Then I had to walk away. I felt like she was saying I caused my daughter to have this, which I know is NOT true, but when someone says something like that to you when you have a T1 it hits home a little more than someone who is not T1.

I am sure many of you have been in similar situation before. I almost lost it but I think I did well. If people only understood what T1 really was all about. I can't even imagine having said something like to someone not knowing much about the disease. Once again people amaze me!!!!

Homesick

Last night at exactly 10:35 my phone was ringing...I knew this was good. It was the call I was dreading my little Sweet and Sassy crying wanting to come home from camp. I just about lost it but I kept it together until we hung up the phone. I told her to try one more night there and things would be better in the morning after she got some sleep. The counselors said she had been crying all week about 5 to 6 times a day and at bedtime. They were having truoble calming her down as the days past. So I ask to speak to the director when she called back she also said I should come get her. So I made her stay last night called and checked on her at lunch time and well here we are at home. I tried everything to get her to stay. All the girls were trying to as well... oh well maybe next year she will stay all week. The sweetest thing was in the truck on the way home she said "mommy when we get home I have surprise for you!" I said "you do what that might be?" When we got home she ran to her room as I was unloading everything. When I walked in the house she said "go to your room." There on my bed laid $15.00 she said " I am sorry for wasting your money on the camp that I did not stay at so keep what I have I even some change you can have too." I thought I was going to cry I told her its not about the money but that you are okay even though I wished she would have stayed.

Day 3 of Sweet and Sassy away at camp

This is what i woke up to today...looks as if she is having a great time. So glad to see a smile on her face...which does not surprise me she always has a smile. Doing much better today!

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How I am dealing with her gone to camp

Well yesterday was one the hardest days I have had since we were diagnosed with T1 I left her at camp. I am glad she has friend there though the two of them could have cared less that us "MOMMY'S" did not want to say good-bye. I did way better than I thought I would...I never shed a tear and neither did Cadence. Last night at bed time was a different story I lost it when I seen her bag with all her diabtetic supplies in it, I felt as if she did not have her Life Support with her. I had to have Blake hide the bag so I do not see it laying around. I couldn't sleep but for about 2 hours at a time only to wake up in panic that she needed to have BG tested and her not to be here. Then to my surprise as I seen some pics from camp with her her happy and smiling. Today has been better. This is my way of dealing with her being gone to start this BLOG. Thanks Misty for gettimg me involved! 

My Sweet and Sassy